Sometimes you just need a break.

I’ve said it before, and made myself a liar. I was ending a hiatus or “break” at some point in the near future. I didn’t. I just ended up forcing myself to make promises I wasn’t truly able to keep. Not because of any malicious intent, or purposeful irresponsibility. I just didn’t know what I needed to do. Ever feel like that? Like you should do something, and end up saying you were going to do it, but later regretted promising? Truth is I was dishonest with myself. Things in life got wonky and I didn’t know what I should do? 

Instead of trying to communicate the nature of my life’s wonkiness, I tried to pretend everything would be fine by a certain date or time. No way that was possible. I also didn’t want to tell everybody about personal problems. Not again. I did that, and I received incredible support and help that kept me and my family from being buried alive. I can’t ever fully convey how much my family and I appreciated that help. It made such a huge difference. Unfortunately it didn’t resolve everything completely. I couldn’t possibly ask again, or even appear to be hinting at it. I knew I couldn’t even let on that major issues remained. My reasoning was that it’s my problem, I got a lot of help, amazing support, and there are things I just couldn’t bring myself to put back out in the open. I had to deal with the remaining obstacles myself. I’m very sorry to have done it so mysteriously without even telling people I consider friends. Didn’t want to bother you, you all have your own things to cope and deal with. 

Anyway, for what it’s worth that’s my thought process on it all. More or less. πŸ™‚ 

So what happened? Ugh. It’s a long story, but let me assure you (if you happen to care) it was just the way it goes sometimes. Life happened. I took the time I needed to confront it, and for the most part, resolve it. Cleared my head, tackled the challenges, hit it with everything I had. Now I am feeling stable and balanced. Happy and encouraged. Not without challenges, but not overwhelmed by any. Back to being me. If you’d still have me, I’d like to get back to being part of the amazing iOS music community. 

Thanks again for the great support. Sorry if it seemed like I just gave up or abandoned everything. I just had to sort things out. 

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14 comments

    1. Thank you, actually thank you to everybody.

      JamStik seem cool, is potentially very cool, but ultimately…just cumbersome. I don’t like that it required a proxy app to run in the background in order to work. My midi keyboard doesn’t require that, and I can just play and play it. Not JamStik. It’s possible that they’ve changed that since I’ve last tried it out, but k was so put off by the process that I never picked it up again.

  1. Oh yeah!
    Glad to see you back brother & I hope you enjoyed your break. I never lost faith you would return until about a month ago when I last checked your site. I very nearly deleted your page and I was intending to visit another favourite page and accidentally clicked yours.
    And then you was there! Looking forward to some more of the best iOS reviewers reviews.
    Happy new year bro

  2. Oh yeah!
    Glad to see you back bro and I hope you enjoyed your break. I hadn’t given up on you returning till about a month ago and today I accidentally hit your link in my favourites (thankfully I never deleted it) when intending to visit an pother page and abracadabra just like magic there you where!
    Looking forward to many more reviewed from the IOS scene’s best reviewer.
    Happy new year bro

  3. Honestly I kept checking this place from time to time and did not wanted to give up. I had no actually since recently or so no hope that there will be life here again. Now today I see it’s updated again πŸ™‚ Life is full of surprises..

    This was the Nr.1 place I used to check for some good App news/reviews. Sometime Life gets nasty and hard but there is a sunshine always above the clouds(I remember this was a song singed by David Sylvian if I’m not mistaken). Don’t take life too serious but also don’t do the opposite and let loose everything….You go down deep to bottom sometimes and naturally you have to come up again πŸ™‚

  4. Welcome back! I thought your Blog is over. And now right alt this moment, I see you’re back again. Great surprise. (Sorry for my bad english writing) But it’s the sounds that count’s! πŸ˜‰

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